motivation

sooo ya kno how you meet someone & you grow to like him or her & then, over a small period of time & being properlly introduced to this person...you kinda start acting "funny"

you're always smiling to yourself & thinking of this person..
& if you're bold, you talk about this person too.... alot! lol

you're more self-conscious, your friend notice it, your parents notice it, pretty much anyone who's close to you notices your changes..

you GlOW in a way..
you're happy =)

you begin to B more conscious of what you wear, what you say, what you do & all kind of things you weren't doing b4 this "special" person came around..


it's silly..
it's sweet..
it's innocent, it's simple..
& it's call'd a crush

this "crush" becomes your "motivation"

you hope so much to impress this person that you begin to take more pride in yourself.. something you probably should've been doing on your own..
but once you realize there jus might B a chance for something to come from this simple crush, you get xcited & maybe dnt seem as nervous or anxious as at first.

so you set a goal.
& you're on POiNT..
& when other ppl try to get at you, you brush em off..
you hav a goal & there's no room for him or her..

you may evn come across sum temping offers & question how much you really want this crush to grow...
but then you think again & realize you've actually put in sum wrk for this catch & you intend to follow thru & fight to the finish!
so it wont B a waste, you continue to giv it all u got... giv'n it your best game..
puttin in sum major effort..




then you realize..
this effort isnt so mutual..
things go left instead of right..

hmmm...
this is strange...
you dnt wanna believe it but you dnt wanna B naive either...

so what do you do??
do you giv it up & say, "well i tried.." ?

or are you like me...stubborn ?
too stubborn to jus stop.
you hav to kno that you did everything you possibly could (but nothing freakishly overwhelming lol) & become completely sure that the reason nothing came from this sweet simple crush is because of the other party..
because you did everything in your power to iniate stage 2 of this tale..& it jus didn't work.



im the kind of person who needs closure to move on..
i dnt like open doors.

i believe in finishing what i start
one way or another
whether it B a good or bad result
when it's over, it's over
so it doesn't matter..
& it's eazier to accept.

xample:
say you're watching the championship basketball game
you've waited All season long for this!!
it's get'n REAl good too!
the score is tied & it's in the 4th quarter..
then the power go'z off!
you never see the end of the game & you never find out the score..
then to make matters worse, you later hear other ppl (who got to see the results) talking about how great it was!
it sux!
& what sux evn more is that there's nothing you can do about it..
=(

see my point...
it's not fair is it?

Im the kind of person who needs closure to move on..
I dnt like open doors.

But it's not eazy to receive my closure when dealing with other ppl..
sum ppl aren't so willing to close the door.
they think that if they leave it open that they can (always) come bck thru it..
riiight..
it makes sense.. but that's NOT the way it worx..


it's selfish..
you never thought about how the other person might feel about this wide open door with all this cold air coming thru...if you catch my drift ;)

well
what if this person was never meant for you..
how would you kno it?

or what if this person was simply meant to catch your eye & lead you on & motivate you..

sometimes ppl are put in your life & it seems as if it's for one reason BUT it turns out to B for another, completely different reason.

& when or if you realize this you might feel like you wasted alot of your time but then you may realize that if it hadn't been for this "crush" to come along & wake you up, you might still B doing things the way you were doing them prior to you evr knowing his or her xistence..
evr think about that??

so in reality this person was your motivation but for a goal you wanted
but turns out this person was meant to motivate you for sumthing much substantial & of much more value...
AND you get a lesson out of it!!

yay! another lesson on love! lol

as a result we get so caught up in superficial things..God has to get creative & get our attention..
what better way to do that than with temptation...

& then jus when you think you got sumthing & get a little comfortable, HE starts to redirect things...

the goal you set for yourself is NOTHiNG compared to the goals GOD has set for you!
so dnt fight it!
jus let it flo...
let go & let GOD B your motivation =)

peace. love. B-eazy.


"u can B my motivation. u can motivate me for u...OR u can motivate me for sumone(thing) else; your choice.." -♥B