what qualifies someone to B called a "friend" ?
like there isnt a checklist we use to make sure someone is or is gonna B a sutable or GOOD friend.
how many times have you THOUGHT u knew someone in & out...and then they flip script on u?
when do you R E A L L Y know a person???
I've always been nice and considerate and caring
but I'm starting to believe that these things are being taken advantage of..
by so called "friends"
maybe its a word i use too loosely..
i THOUGHT i was careful about it but obviously not careful enough
whenever im in any situation or i feel like that im possibly being mistreated I've trained myself to check myself first
I really sit & think
have i ever done that to him/her?
how would i feel if that happened to me?
is this really worth it?
can it B ignored?
i wonder how many ppl actually do that
i think alot of ppl dont really care, judging by actions
For example:
peep this..
"friend" of mine owed me money
$50
i lended it to her knowing it was against my better judgement, but did it anyway optimistically thinking, "Its cool, she's gonna pay me back"
i didnt have a job & the money i had was set aside for bills that werent due yet, so i figured cool...she should have it back to me before the bills are due.
boooy was i WRONG!
to make a lond story short..
i asked her about it maybe 2 or 3 times, all of these time, SHE gives ME attitude o_O
now, i shouldve been the one with the attitude!
Bitch U owe ME money!
anyway.. her excuse was that she "hadnt gone to work yet"
she hadnt have "TIME" to go
my point was dont try to feed me bullshit & expect me to eat it.
im not fucking stupid.
You got TIME & MONEY to go get ya nails & ya feet done.
You got TIME & MONEY to drive out to another city & state to go bullshit for no goddamn reason & get back
You got TIME & MONEY to go buying hair & shit
sooo dont give a bullshit excuse you dont have TIME, cause u got plenty time.. u jus chose to do other shit with it.
I could respect the truth.
but when u insult me with a dumb ass lie like dat u lose ALOT of respect from me..
You'd think with me ASKING her "do you have that money yet? my water is cut off"
she'd pay it back sooner instead this retarded bitch does the complete opposite..
asks me to wash something for her!
HOW THE FCK can you wash with NO water ???!!
someone who gave a fck would have realized how stupid that was before they said it...
wouldve tried to help
ooooooh noooo, not my "friends" lol
Now this isnt the only situation when i've felt like i've questioned if someone was a good friend to me
a handful of my "friendships" have been one-way meaning im a friend to them.. & thats it
but some things i can overlook or live with
but this SMH...will take me a loooong time to get over because i personally despise liars..
especially when its an obvious lie & u stick with it
its insulting and "friends" dont insult
that's how i feel..
even in this situation, i had to check myself
-have i ever done this to her? or anybody? HELL NO
-how would i feel if the shoe was on the other foot? I would make every effort to help, not hurt the situation
-is is really worth it? FCK YEA, my water was cut off! for like a week!
-can it B ignored? FCK NO! no way in hell will there B a way i can bypass this..so it can happen again??! cant get me..
needless to say, i didnt need to do much self checking in this particular situation..
I think some ppl must forget the good deeds that are done by someone else to benefit them
that must B it!
either that, or they simply dont have a conscience.
I dont do good things for ppl because im looking for something in return
I do them because i like to help ppl...
& i help my "friends" as best i can without question because they are supposed to B my FRIENDS
I try to treat ppl like i want them to treat me, but i CLEARLY must B the only one still trying that method!
i wouldnt do the things i do for them if i knew, when i need help i'd have to figure things out on my own
so by aaallllll of that i mean this
make close observations about the ppl you call your friends
decide early if they are the type of person u wanna B associated with
& decide whether their habits are something u can deal with
we all have different friends for different reasons
place them accordingly because if you are not careful
before u kno it, your fake "friend" will B your real enemy
now whocandigdat shit
"dont piss on my leg & tell me its raining" -Old People
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