i think i kinda miss you
really wish i could B with you
your love is like a drug
that sumhow i got fixed to
its official i miss you
im addicted to your kisses
i close my eyes & i can feel em
& you're nowhere near me
i wish you could be mine
but i cant change your mind
& i kno i tried
for that i apologize
but seriously you must understand my position
maybe i got too excited, but i had good intentions
i didn't mean to run off with too much too soon
but i wanted to keep your attention..tell me what you'd do?
i really wish i could have kept you around
i miss your smile
i miss laying in your arms
& you holding my hands
& you running your fingers down my back & through my hair
i really should hav known it was too good to be true
but i still wish i could recreate my time with you
i hold my pillow & pretend its you
& when it doesn't hold me back thats how i kno its true
its over, what we had, whatever it was
you used to be soo sweet how'd you turn so sour?
we don't even speak, so is this really it?
i kno we weren't much but are we not evn friends?
i remember your arms so warm, how'd you turn so cold?
it could have been so perfect but maybe i was dreaming
seemed like it was real
maybe you dont feel
maybe i took you a little too personal
maybe it was never real & that's what hurts the most...
maybe we'll start over later on in life
im thinking of you, maybe you'll dream of me tonight...
(( to B continued... ))
--♥Shon
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
30/60/90 Day Trial Period -- Don't waste my >>time<< is money! (( Feedback Plz!! ))
ok so i was having a conversation via txt msg with a friend of mine (( who supposedly "likes me"))
and we started talking about relationships because he seems to think i would make a good G-word.."girlfriend"..
so anyway i ask'd what are some things that he likes about a girl and he mentioned briefly that he likes a girl who is/ has:
*good personality
*a sense of humor
* is outgoing
*who knows how to have fun
*has goals in life
*is drama free
*likes to go to church
*is a family woman
..jus to name a few things..
so he in turn asked me the same question, what are sum things that i like and i, VERY briefly responded (cuz i could go on & on)..
i like:
*someone who is a good person
*has an honest heart
*who is reliable and considerate
*not necessarily "friendly" but approachable
*the same things that he mentioned
* & someone who pays attention to me
& that's BRiEF, once again..
anyway as the convo went on we discovered that we both feel like the whole talking or "dating" scene or whatever u wanna call what this generation does nowadays thing is unsatisfying, disappointing, and basically a waste of time.
he asked if i was looking for a relationship and i responded that i am not looking for anything, i simply take things day by day..
life is unpredictable anyway
and i couldn't have nearly been prepared for alot of the things that i've overcome already.
so what's the point in planning?
especially if planning involves another person whose actions you are COMPlETElY in no controll of..
i told him that i get tired of giving ppl chances and opportunities with my time because it gets wasted or is just unappreciated..
each time i try and get disappointed, my patience becomes thinner and thinner..
he agreed and says that it gets old..
i agree..
he said that that's why he stays to himself..
so do i..& im happy.
sumtimes it seems like ppl are disappointments jus waiting for the chance or opportunity to show u jus how much they can disappoint u.
how unreliable they can be.
how much different from your expectations they can be and how much of a waste it is to put your trust into them and keep trying
over
& over
& over & over..to give the next person a chance b/c they "might" B better than the last
and its a gamble.
& im sorry call me a sore loser (( & in no quitter )) if you will but after falling on your ass or your face so many times..
you've got to learn to STOP doing whatever it is to cause it to happen.
im the type of person who genuinely tries to treat ppl the way i want to B treated..
but sometimes i can put too much faith or trust into ppl
& give them a little too much credit..
& that cause imbalance.. like a 70 to your 30..or maybe 80 to your 20..
& sometimes 110 to your NEGATiVE..
which leave me with the short end of the stick..
the smallest straw of the draw...
the small part of the wish bone when you pull it apart etc. u get my point...hopefully...
(( ..or NOT! lol ))
guess that's life..
but my point is that once i stopped doing things that i thought other ppl would like
or doing things to make other ppl happy
& started to jus live for me ..i became myself... again..
now i wont compromise my character or demoralize myself but you could say that i can/will sacrifice something from/of myself if i honestly thought it would benefit someone else.
i love helping ppl & being a good friend ((<--that's how you get your blessings))
& I KNO im a good person but sometimes its hard to tell if everyone else sees what you see.. ya kno?
& if they don't it doesn't matter anyway..
and as soon as i take that attitude back up..u got BA again =)
(( & if you thought 'Brittany' was bad, she really doesnt care what u think lol ))
anyway.. i can B completely naive to the obvious signs that someone likes me even if they tell me..
probably b/c WORDS dont do much for me...at all.
but when it comes down to it i kno that if i was in a relationship i'd B a great G-word..
the best maybe.. lol
what's funny to me is how i can come in touch with guy after guy and im REAllY REAllY not so complex..fairly simple (( if you pay attention ))
and they get talley mark'd off like its get one fck up after the next and
i meet these dudes & they jus go on & on about how they're soo different & "ill treat u right" & yadayadayada..blah whatever but what kills me is how are you gon treat me right if you
A. don't kno SHiT about me (( & aint tryna find out ))
B. hav never asked how i'd like to B treated (( hellloooo ask ME the primary source, ASS! ))
C. DNT ANSWER THE PHONE! (( tisk tisk tisk ))
D. say you're gonna do something.. & NOT (( pet peeve which REAllY burns me up ))
E.^^ on top of that dnt call/txt saying that you're unable to live up to your word (( ugh!..shame, shame ))
F. ima leave this one blank cuz like i said i could go on & on...
so i mean i kno dudes come accross sum chix who aint shit
and we all kno dat 85% of niggas aint bout shit ((but themselves)) already
***so my question is WHY would you rather juggle a menagerie of clueless, fast, open, wild, prideless girls who hav no definition of who they are rather than HANDliNG 1 commited, trustworthy, mysterious, fun, loving WOMAN who knows exactly who she is and what she wants who you KNO is gon B down for you no matter what??
i mean after going thru soo many why B so open?
why go backwards?
why not cut dem hoes OFF & keep to yourself..
or if you wanna B with SOMEbody how bout jus hav ONE??
its less to keep up with, less to worry about, less to care about, less to manage
maybe im lazy but i think my idea makes more sense than yours..
evn if you jus dont like to B alone...
that's perfectly normal..
ppl get lonely and need companionship..cool..
but really? do you really HONESTlY believe that talking to 3+ evn 2+ guys or girls to periodically fill the void is a good decision?
how about u fill the void PERMANANTlY--or long-term-temporarily lol
i think it's sloppy and you're jus gonna hav to clean up a big mess later so why not B pro active about the situation??
like am i making sense or do belong on another planet??
i jus dont see the point in going back & forth with "talking" or "messin around" with multiple ppl.
for one that's gross & 2 like if the person you're talking to isn't cutting it
how bout u jus move along!
u dont HAV to find something u like about the person and use it up until u cant stand it anymore or until they realize what game ur playing..
do what i do!
run a trial period, 30 day, 60 day, 90 day..your choice..
if he or she ain't working cancel your services & move the hell on!! lol
im serious tho..my time is valuable..
(( ive said it once, ill say it again: make it count 4 sumthin hunni..dnt waste my >>time<< is money! ))
how bout u jus find one & stick to him/her.
& i kno it's not simple to jus 'find' a good one who can do it for u
(( especially if you're as picky as i am ))
but why not limit or put a standard on who you giv your chances to..
everyone who knows me KNOWS me
KNOWS what kind of person i am..
im sweet
im caring
im nice..so on..
but im not sweet, caring, or nice to EVRYONE!!
b/c EVRYONE doesn't deserve it..
& EVRYONE doesn't earn it..
& if they dont work for it on their own
nothing you do can make their conscience empathize with what you think you deserve from this or that person..
u cant pull it out, dig it out, sex it out, talk it out, walk it out none of dat lol
a person will treat you how they see fit
until they feel to treat you otherwise..
jus like i personally believe if you genuinely lOVE someone, theres NO way you could cheat on him or her..im sorry that jus the way i feel..
i mean only so many things can fit into a heart..
if you overwhelm it..its bound to B broken...
(( im rambling by now, you may understand it; you may not. matters not.. ))
so basically the whole point of this note was to ask my question & to xplain what led me to ask it..as well as state my views or opinions on this issue..
i jus cant seem to understand how a guy can pass on a good catch to deal with multiple not so good chix... = /
i really dnt understand and im really hoping someone can explain to me what is the reason for this, if there is a reason...
& the same goes for women, we pass on a few good men also, we arent perfect..
i personally am picky..but i DONT lead any one on..
if im not feelin it, you'll kno it.. & likewise if i am feeling it..
i really wanna kno ppl's opinions about this whether u agree or disagree with anything i've mentioned..so feedback plz!
-♥Shon.
and we started talking about relationships because he seems to think i would make a good G-word.."girlfriend"..
so anyway i ask'd what are some things that he likes about a girl and he mentioned briefly that he likes a girl who is/ has:
*good personality
*a sense of humor
* is outgoing
*who knows how to have fun
*has goals in life
*is drama free
*likes to go to church
*is a family woman
..jus to name a few things..
so he in turn asked me the same question, what are sum things that i like and i, VERY briefly responded (cuz i could go on & on)..
i like:
*someone who is a good person
*has an honest heart
*who is reliable and considerate
*not necessarily "friendly" but approachable
*the same things that he mentioned
* & someone who pays attention to me
& that's BRiEF, once again..
anyway as the convo went on we discovered that we both feel like the whole talking or "dating" scene or whatever u wanna call what this generation does nowadays thing is unsatisfying, disappointing, and basically a waste of time.
he asked if i was looking for a relationship and i responded that i am not looking for anything, i simply take things day by day..
life is unpredictable anyway
and i couldn't have nearly been prepared for alot of the things that i've overcome already.
so what's the point in planning?
especially if planning involves another person whose actions you are COMPlETElY in no controll of..
i told him that i get tired of giving ppl chances and opportunities with my time because it gets wasted or is just unappreciated..
each time i try and get disappointed, my patience becomes thinner and thinner..
he agreed and says that it gets old..
i agree..
he said that that's why he stays to himself..
so do i..& im happy.
sumtimes it seems like ppl are disappointments jus waiting for the chance or opportunity to show u jus how much they can disappoint u.
how unreliable they can be.
how much different from your expectations they can be and how much of a waste it is to put your trust into them and keep trying
over
& over
& over & over..to give the next person a chance b/c they "might" B better than the last
and its a gamble.
& im sorry call me a sore loser (( & in no quitter )) if you will but after falling on your ass or your face so many times..
you've got to learn to STOP doing whatever it is to cause it to happen.
im the type of person who genuinely tries to treat ppl the way i want to B treated..
but sometimes i can put too much faith or trust into ppl
& give them a little too much credit..
& that cause imbalance.. like a 70 to your 30..or maybe 80 to your 20..
& sometimes 110 to your NEGATiVE..
which leave me with the short end of the stick..
the smallest straw of the draw...
the small part of the wish bone when you pull it apart etc. u get my point...hopefully...
(( ..or NOT! lol ))
guess that's life..
but my point is that once i stopped doing things that i thought other ppl would like
or doing things to make other ppl happy
& started to jus live for me ..i became myself... again..
now i wont compromise my character or demoralize myself but you could say that i can/will sacrifice something from/of myself if i honestly thought it would benefit someone else.
i love helping ppl & being a good friend ((<--that's how you get your blessings))
& I KNO im a good person but sometimes its hard to tell if everyone else sees what you see.. ya kno?
& if they don't it doesn't matter anyway..
and as soon as i take that attitude back up..u got BA again =)
(( & if you thought 'Brittany' was bad, she really doesnt care what u think lol ))
anyway.. i can B completely naive to the obvious signs that someone likes me even if they tell me..
probably b/c WORDS dont do much for me...at all.
but when it comes down to it i kno that if i was in a relationship i'd B a great G-word..
the best maybe.. lol
what's funny to me is how i can come in touch with guy after guy and im REAllY REAllY not so complex..fairly simple (( if you pay attention ))
and they get talley mark'd off like its get one fck up after the next and
i meet these dudes & they jus go on & on about how they're soo different & "ill treat u right" & yadayadayada..blah whatever but what kills me is how are you gon treat me right if you
A. don't kno SHiT about me (( & aint tryna find out ))
B. hav never asked how i'd like to B treated (( hellloooo ask ME the primary source, ASS! ))
C. DNT ANSWER THE PHONE! (( tisk tisk tisk ))
D. say you're gonna do something.. & NOT (( pet peeve which REAllY burns me up ))
E.^^ on top of that dnt call/txt saying that you're unable to live up to your word (( ugh!..shame, shame ))
F. ima leave this one blank cuz like i said i could go on & on...
so i mean i kno dudes come accross sum chix who aint shit
and we all kno dat 85% of niggas aint bout shit ((but themselves)) already
***so my question is WHY would you rather juggle a menagerie of clueless, fast, open, wild, prideless girls who hav no definition of who they are rather than HANDliNG 1 commited, trustworthy, mysterious, fun, loving WOMAN who knows exactly who she is and what she wants who you KNO is gon B down for you no matter what??
i mean after going thru soo many why B so open?
why go backwards?
why not cut dem hoes OFF & keep to yourself..
or if you wanna B with SOMEbody how bout jus hav ONE??
its less to keep up with, less to worry about, less to care about, less to manage
maybe im lazy but i think my idea makes more sense than yours..
evn if you jus dont like to B alone...
that's perfectly normal..
ppl get lonely and need companionship..cool..
but really? do you really HONESTlY believe that talking to 3+ evn 2+ guys or girls to periodically fill the void is a good decision?
how about u fill the void PERMANANTlY--or long-term-temporarily lol
i think it's sloppy and you're jus gonna hav to clean up a big mess later so why not B pro active about the situation??
like am i making sense or do belong on another planet??
i jus dont see the point in going back & forth with "talking" or "messin around" with multiple ppl.
for one that's gross & 2 like if the person you're talking to isn't cutting it
how bout u jus move along!
u dont HAV to find something u like about the person and use it up until u cant stand it anymore or until they realize what game ur playing..
do what i do!
run a trial period, 30 day, 60 day, 90 day..your choice..
if he or she ain't working cancel your services & move the hell on!! lol
im serious tho..my time is valuable..
(( ive said it once, ill say it again: make it count 4 sumthin hunni..dnt waste my >>time<< is money! ))
how bout u jus find one & stick to him/her.
& i kno it's not simple to jus 'find' a good one who can do it for u
(( especially if you're as picky as i am ))
but why not limit or put a standard on who you giv your chances to..
everyone who knows me KNOWS me
KNOWS what kind of person i am..
im sweet
im caring
im nice..so on..
but im not sweet, caring, or nice to EVRYONE!!
b/c EVRYONE doesn't deserve it..
& EVRYONE doesn't earn it..
& if they dont work for it on their own
nothing you do can make their conscience empathize with what you think you deserve from this or that person..
u cant pull it out, dig it out, sex it out, talk it out, walk it out none of dat lol
a person will treat you how they see fit
until they feel to treat you otherwise..
jus like i personally believe if you genuinely lOVE someone, theres NO way you could cheat on him or her..im sorry that jus the way i feel..
i mean only so many things can fit into a heart..
if you overwhelm it..its bound to B broken...
(( im rambling by now, you may understand it; you may not. matters not.. ))
so basically the whole point of this note was to ask my question & to xplain what led me to ask it..as well as state my views or opinions on this issue..
i jus cant seem to understand how a guy can pass on a good catch to deal with multiple not so good chix... = /
i really dnt understand and im really hoping someone can explain to me what is the reason for this, if there is a reason...
& the same goes for women, we pass on a few good men also, we arent perfect..
i personally am picky..but i DONT lead any one on..
if im not feelin it, you'll kno it.. & likewise if i am feeling it..
i really wanna kno ppl's opinions about this whether u agree or disagree with anything i've mentioned..so feedback plz!
-♥Shon.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Kill:jOY
Kill:jOY
LIFE IS SO FUNNY!! i WONDER HOW i LET PEOPLE [WHO CLEARLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME] KILL MY JOY! IT'S FUNNY HOW PEOPLE PAY MORE ATTENTION TO DA MUTHAFUCKAS WHO DON'T REALLY LOVE [BUT OF COARSE SAY THEY DO] and completely IGNORE the one that geniunely does!
MAYBE I SHOULD BE WRITING DIS SHIT IN HAPPINESS AND BLISS WITH THE THOUGHT [ THAT SHOULD BE A PLEASANT ONE] THAT ALL THE MANY OF YOU DUMB ASS NIGGAS WHO TREAT ME AND EVERYBODY ELSE LIKE PURE ASS HORSE, DOG, RAT, AND ELEPHANT SHIT SHOULD ONE DAY REALIZE THAT YOU ARE FUCK'N DUMB AS HELL AND BEGIN TO QUESTION YOUR OWN EXISTENCE...
AND IF YOU READING THIS AND THINKIN "AWW SHIT SHE AIN'T TALKING BOUT ME, EVERYTHING STRAIGHT WIT US" YOU'RE A CONSTIPATED ASS PERSON MEANING....YUR FULL OF SHIT! IT'S ABOUT YO BITCH ASS TOO! YOU GOT A LOOOOOONNG WAY TO GO!
♥B
LIFE IS SO FUNNY!! i WONDER HOW i LET PEOPLE [WHO CLEARLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME] KILL MY JOY! IT'S FUNNY HOW PEOPLE PAY MORE ATTENTION TO DA MUTHAFUCKAS WHO DON'T REALLY LOVE [BUT OF COARSE SAY THEY DO] and completely IGNORE the one that geniunely does!
PEOPLE ARE REALLY STUPID THEY DON'T THINK. THEY REALLY DON'T THINK AND THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY GOT UNTIL ITS GONE. LONG GONE. DEEZ DUMB ASS NIGGAS DON'T REALIZE A BITCH AIN'T BOUT NOTHING TIL DA ONE DAT IS GOT SOMEBODY!!!SO MAYBE THIS SHOULDN'T HAVE ANGER IN IT?
MAYBE I SHOULD BE WRITING DIS SHIT IN HAPPINESS AND BLISS WITH THE THOUGHT [ THAT SHOULD BE A PLEASANT ONE] THAT ALL THE MANY OF YOU DUMB ASS NIGGAS WHO TREAT ME AND EVERYBODY ELSE LIKE PURE ASS HORSE, DOG, RAT, AND ELEPHANT SHIT SHOULD ONE DAY REALIZE THAT YOU ARE FUCK'N DUMB AS HELL AND BEGIN TO QUESTION YOUR OWN EXISTENCE...
AND AGAIN IF YOU DUMMIES HAVEN'T REALIZED...YOU AIN'T JUST BUSY OR LIVING FAST..THIS YEAR WENT BY QUICK...TIME'S SPEEDING UP AND YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME...FRANKLY i COULD GIVE A FUCK LESS...YOU GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME...I GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU: THE FEELING IS MUTUAL...HATE:HATE RELATIONSHIP...DA ONLY DIFFERENCE IS DAT I AIN'T GON KILL YO JOY..IMA LET YOU HAVE SO WHEN YOU FINALLY HAVE DAT EPIPHANY YOU'LL FEEL EXTRA DUMB YOU KILLIN YA OWN JOY...GENIUS...;)SORRY FA YOU! I DOUBT YOU'LL GET IT BY O8...DAMN SHAME...HALF OF YA'LL ARE OLDER THAN BE BUT I GUESS A.D.H. SAID IT BEST AGE DAMN SHO AIN'T NUTHIN BUT A NUMBA CAUSE YA'LL AIN'T ON MY LEVEL!
AND UM...IF YOU'RE OFFENDED BY THIS...IT'S PROBABLY ABOUT YOU......AND IF YOU WERE OFFENDED BEFORE YOU READ THIS AND ALL OF A SUDDEN ACTIN LIKE YOU NOT AND YOU IN A ROOM FULL OF YOSELF...TRYNA PROVE DAT SHIT...TO YOSELF...IT'S MOST LIKELY ABOUT YOU TOO
AND IF YOU READING THIS AND THINKIN "AWW SHIT SHE AIN'T TALKING BOUT ME, EVERYTHING STRAIGHT WIT US" YOU'RE A CONSTIPATED ASS PERSON MEANING....YUR FULL OF SHIT! IT'S ABOUT YO BITCH ASS TOO! YOU GOT A LOOOOOONNG WAY TO GO!
BUT DON'T WORRY i AIN'T JUDGING YOU...IM PRAYING FA YOU...AS A WHOLE THO...ITS TOO MANY OF YOU MOFO'S INDIVIDUALLY... =) SO FOR ALLLLLL YOU WHACK ASS LAME ASS BITCH ASS HOE ASS TRICK ASS SWEET ASS TOO-STUCK-ON-YA-DAMN-SELF ASS FUCK-YOU-BITCH-IM-ACK'N-BRAND-NEW ASS FUCK-YO-NUT-IM-GETTIN-MINE ASS NIGGAS [IF YA ASS WOULD STICK AROUND AND QUIT ACK'N SO DAMN SCARY YOU'D SEE IM AS GOOD AS IT GETS ANYWAY...]
DON'T WAIT TIL IM DEAD TO DO ME RIGHT...DON'T WAIT TIL IM TAKEN TO SAY UR SORRY...DON'T WAIT TIL IM NONCHALANT TO SAY THANK YOU...DON'T WAIT TIL I'VE MOVED ON TO SAY YOU AIN'T MEAN IT...DON'T WAIT TIL I'M IN LOVE TO SAY YOU LOVE ME...DON'T WAIT TIL I STOP LOVIN YOU TO SHOW ME...AND DON'T WAIT TIL IM HAPPY TO TRY AND KILL MY JOY.
REAl iS All i CAN B
♥B
ain't dat a trip?!
2:50am
Ain't this a trip
after all the time HE spent
chasin after me
IM the one to submit!
Ain't DAT sum shit?!
Shit, I was chillin
but then
he knocked & I let him in
now he re-arranging shit!
Ain't dat a bitch!!
I really can't believe it
trippin over another dude ain't even me
Now ain't dat a trip! Ha!
literally cause
If Im falling for you
need you to catch me, not pick me up ;)
How did he do it?
He musta caught me slippin
I handed him the script &
dis muthafcka flipped it!
Dis dude got me trippin!
& i need for him to fix it
can't keep coming back & forth
I need solid stability
I mean he really got to me
Got me cryin drunken tears
cause I can't seem to understand
whats so wrong wit me dat he cant stay here ???
& he knows how I feel
cause he can hear my tears
but he's silent until he's ready to try again
I can't keep doin this
playin lovers & friends
if you can be a good lover,
why can't you be a good friend?
But I can't describe the feelings
he takes my heart & makes me weak
he keeps breaking my code
ain't never had a lock & key
Tug-of-war:Love Edition
he worked so hard for a position
& when i came around he let me down
& I'm supposed to believe it's gon be different??
You must be trippin!
Cause really, seriously
You're just now realizing how much you miss me
"I'm really sorry, I am, it's gon be different
baby trust me. All I need is one more chance B
please hug me, hold me, kiss me"
Dammit man, don't temp me
I really should avoid thee
but you do something real to me
you make this "love" thing appeal to me
& I won't stop until I learn tho
you keep it real, this chance you'll earn so
I'll deal ya hand so play ya cards right
You Final chance into my love life
((make it count for somethin hunni...u don't wanna waste my time is money))
Ain't this a trip
after all the time HE spent
chasin after me
IM the one to submit!
Ain't DAT sum shit?!
Shit, I was chillin
but then
he knocked & I let him in
now he re-arranging shit!
Ain't dat a bitch!!
I really can't believe it
trippin over another dude ain't even me
Now ain't dat a trip! Ha!
literally cause
If Im falling for you
need you to catch me, not pick me up ;)
How did he do it?
He musta caught me slippin
I handed him the script &
dis muthafcka flipped it!
Dis dude got me trippin!
& i need for him to fix it
can't keep coming back & forth
I need solid stability
I mean he really got to me
Got me cryin drunken tears
cause I can't seem to understand
whats so wrong wit me dat he cant stay here ???
& he knows how I feel
cause he can hear my tears
but he's silent until he's ready to try again
I can't keep doin this
playin lovers & friends
if you can be a good lover,
why can't you be a good friend?
But I can't describe the feelings
he takes my heart & makes me weak
he keeps breaking my code
ain't never had a lock & key
Tug-of-war:Love Edition
he worked so hard for a position
& when i came around he let me down
& I'm supposed to believe it's gon be different??
You must be trippin!
Cause really, seriously
You're just now realizing how much you miss me
"I'm really sorry, I am, it's gon be different
baby trust me. All I need is one more chance B
please hug me, hold me, kiss me"
Dammit man, don't temp me
I really should avoid thee
but you do something real to me
you make this "love" thing appeal to me
& I won't stop until I learn tho
you keep it real, this chance you'll earn so
I'll deal ya hand so play ya cards right
You Final chance into my love life
((make it count for somethin hunni...u don't wanna waste my time is money))
can you handle it??
can you handle it, if i ask'd you to keep it real wit me?
or is real to you & real to me two completely different things??
can you handle it, if i said i didn't love you, im leaving & i dnt kno when i'll be back?
or would you say you could & (flip side) bounce without notice like nothing ever happened??
what if i said i care about you but i can't be with you
would you respect it? or would you reject it?
can you handle it??
do you understand what love really is?
can you handle being in it?
can you handle being in it alone?
No?
so dnt say it..
if you can't handle it, plz jus let me kno
because i understand you're human & lOVE is very bold..
but love can handle anything..
if you're no match for it, dnt jump in it
dnt ask for it if you cant handle it.
if you're not sure, then say that
dnt say you will, say you're willing..
dnt say you can, say you can try..
dnt promise anything except that you won't promise me anything..
dnt tell me one thing then do another
dnt tell me you can handle it if you're really not sure
dnt say things with hopes that you'll soon come to believe them
dnt say you'll always be here cause no one's guaranteed to be here..
with God as my witness, i'll giv you what you giv me
but if you fall short for too long, i'll be gone, & you cnt blame me
i've endured many things & there are times that i've been passive
but there comes a time when being passive turns into getting past it
i won't treat the next differently, but i still will always kno
that the way ppl say they feel isn't always what they show..
or is real to you & real to me two completely different things??
can you handle it, if i said i didn't love you, im leaving & i dnt kno when i'll be back?
or would you say you could & (flip side) bounce without notice like nothing ever happened??
what if i said i care about you but i can't be with you
would you respect it? or would you reject it?
can you handle it??
do you understand what love really is?
can you handle being in it?
can you handle being in it alone?
No?
so dnt say it..
if you can't handle it, plz jus let me kno
because i understand you're human & lOVE is very bold..
but love can handle anything..
if you're no match for it, dnt jump in it
dnt ask for it if you cant handle it.
if you're not sure, then say that
dnt say you will, say you're willing..
dnt say you can, say you can try..
dnt promise anything except that you won't promise me anything..
dnt tell me one thing then do another
dnt tell me you can handle it if you're really not sure
dnt say things with hopes that you'll soon come to believe them
dnt say you'll always be here cause no one's guaranteed to be here..
with God as my witness, i'll giv you what you giv me
but if you fall short for too long, i'll be gone, & you cnt blame me
i've endured many things & there are times that i've been passive
but there comes a time when being passive turns into getting past it
i won't treat the next differently, but i still will always kno
that the way ppl say they feel isn't always what they show..
Friday, June 11, 2010
--fake friends make real enemies
what qualifies someone to B called a "friend" ?
like there isnt a checklist we use to make sure someone is or is gonna B a sutable or GOOD friend.
how many times have you THOUGHT u knew someone in & out...and then they flip script on u?
when do you R E A L L Y know a person???
I've always been nice and considerate and caring
but I'm starting to believe that these things are being taken advantage of..
by so called "friends"
maybe its a word i use too loosely..
i THOUGHT i was careful about it but obviously not careful enough
whenever im in any situation or i feel like that im possibly being mistreated I've trained myself to check myself first
I really sit & think
have i ever done that to him/her?
how would i feel if that happened to me?
is this really worth it?
can it B ignored?
i wonder how many ppl actually do that
i think alot of ppl dont really care, judging by actions
For example:
peep this..
"friend" of mine owed me money
$50
i lended it to her knowing it was against my better judgement, but did it anyway optimistically thinking, "Its cool, she's gonna pay me back"
i didnt have a job & the money i had was set aside for bills that werent due yet, so i figured cool...she should have it back to me before the bills are due.
boooy was i WRONG!
to make a lond story short..
i asked her about it maybe 2 or 3 times, all of these time, SHE gives ME attitude o_O
now, i shouldve been the one with the attitude!
Bitch U owe ME money!
anyway.. her excuse was that she "hadnt gone to work yet"
she hadnt have "TIME" to go
my point was dont try to feed me bullshit & expect me to eat it.
im not fucking stupid.
You got TIME & MONEY to go get ya nails & ya feet done.
You got TIME & MONEY to drive out to another city & state to go bullshit for no goddamn reason & get back
You got TIME & MONEY to go buying hair & shit
sooo dont give a bullshit excuse you dont have TIME, cause u got plenty time.. u jus chose to do other shit with it.
I could respect the truth.
but when u insult me with a dumb ass lie like dat u lose ALOT of respect from me..
You'd think with me ASKING her "do you have that money yet? my water is cut off"
she'd pay it back sooner instead this retarded bitch does the complete opposite..
asks me to wash something for her!
HOW THE FCK can you wash with NO water ???!!
someone who gave a fck would have realized how stupid that was before they said it...
wouldve tried to help
ooooooh noooo, not my "friends" lol
Now this isnt the only situation when i've felt like i've questioned if someone was a good friend to me
a handful of my "friendships" have been one-way meaning im a friend to them.. & thats it
but some things i can overlook or live with
but this SMH...will take me a loooong time to get over because i personally despise liars..
especially when its an obvious lie & u stick with it
its insulting and "friends" dont insult
that's how i feel..
even in this situation, i had to check myself
-have i ever done this to her? or anybody? HELL NO
-how would i feel if the shoe was on the other foot? I would make every effort to help, not hurt the situation
-is is really worth it? FCK YEA, my water was cut off! for like a week!
-can it B ignored? FCK NO! no way in hell will there B a way i can bypass this..so it can happen again??! cant get me..
needless to say, i didnt need to do much self checking in this particular situation..
I think some ppl must forget the good deeds that are done by someone else to benefit them
that must B it!
either that, or they simply dont have a conscience.
I dont do good things for ppl because im looking for something in return
I do them because i like to help ppl...
& i help my "friends" as best i can without question because they are supposed to B my FRIENDS
I try to treat ppl like i want them to treat me, but i CLEARLY must B the only one still trying that method!
i wouldnt do the things i do for them if i knew, when i need help i'd have to figure things out on my own
so by aaallllll of that i mean this
make close observations about the ppl you call your friends
decide early if they are the type of person u wanna B associated with
& decide whether their habits are something u can deal with
we all have different friends for different reasons
place them accordingly because if you are not careful
before u kno it, your fake "friend" will B your real enemy
now whocandigdat shit
"dont piss on my leg & tell me its raining" -Old People
like there isnt a checklist we use to make sure someone is or is gonna B a sutable or GOOD friend.
how many times have you THOUGHT u knew someone in & out...and then they flip script on u?
when do you R E A L L Y know a person???
I've always been nice and considerate and caring
but I'm starting to believe that these things are being taken advantage of..
by so called "friends"
maybe its a word i use too loosely..
i THOUGHT i was careful about it but obviously not careful enough
whenever im in any situation or i feel like that im possibly being mistreated I've trained myself to check myself first
I really sit & think
have i ever done that to him/her?
how would i feel if that happened to me?
is this really worth it?
can it B ignored?
i wonder how many ppl actually do that
i think alot of ppl dont really care, judging by actions
For example:
peep this..
"friend" of mine owed me money
$50
i lended it to her knowing it was against my better judgement, but did it anyway optimistically thinking, "Its cool, she's gonna pay me back"
i didnt have a job & the money i had was set aside for bills that werent due yet, so i figured cool...she should have it back to me before the bills are due.
boooy was i WRONG!
to make a lond story short..
i asked her about it maybe 2 or 3 times, all of these time, SHE gives ME attitude o_O
now, i shouldve been the one with the attitude!
Bitch U owe ME money!
anyway.. her excuse was that she "hadnt gone to work yet"
she hadnt have "TIME" to go
my point was dont try to feed me bullshit & expect me to eat it.
im not fucking stupid.
You got TIME & MONEY to go get ya nails & ya feet done.
You got TIME & MONEY to drive out to another city & state to go bullshit for no goddamn reason & get back
You got TIME & MONEY to go buying hair & shit
sooo dont give a bullshit excuse you dont have TIME, cause u got plenty time.. u jus chose to do other shit with it.
I could respect the truth.
but when u insult me with a dumb ass lie like dat u lose ALOT of respect from me..
You'd think with me ASKING her "do you have that money yet? my water is cut off"
she'd pay it back sooner instead this retarded bitch does the complete opposite..
asks me to wash something for her!
HOW THE FCK can you wash with NO water ???!!
someone who gave a fck would have realized how stupid that was before they said it...
wouldve tried to help
ooooooh noooo, not my "friends" lol
Now this isnt the only situation when i've felt like i've questioned if someone was a good friend to me
a handful of my "friendships" have been one-way meaning im a friend to them.. & thats it
but some things i can overlook or live with
but this SMH...will take me a loooong time to get over because i personally despise liars..
especially when its an obvious lie & u stick with it
its insulting and "friends" dont insult
that's how i feel..
even in this situation, i had to check myself
-have i ever done this to her? or anybody? HELL NO
-how would i feel if the shoe was on the other foot? I would make every effort to help, not hurt the situation
-is is really worth it? FCK YEA, my water was cut off! for like a week!
-can it B ignored? FCK NO! no way in hell will there B a way i can bypass this..so it can happen again??! cant get me..
needless to say, i didnt need to do much self checking in this particular situation..
I think some ppl must forget the good deeds that are done by someone else to benefit them
that must B it!
either that, or they simply dont have a conscience.
I dont do good things for ppl because im looking for something in return
I do them because i like to help ppl...
& i help my "friends" as best i can without question because they are supposed to B my FRIENDS
I try to treat ppl like i want them to treat me, but i CLEARLY must B the only one still trying that method!
i wouldnt do the things i do for them if i knew, when i need help i'd have to figure things out on my own
so by aaallllll of that i mean this
make close observations about the ppl you call your friends
decide early if they are the type of person u wanna B associated with
& decide whether their habits are something u can deal with
we all have different friends for different reasons
place them accordingly because if you are not careful
before u kno it, your fake "friend" will B your real enemy
now whocandigdat shit
"dont piss on my leg & tell me its raining" -Old People
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