ok so i was having a conversation via txt msg with a friend of mine (( who supposedly "likes me"))
and we started talking about relationships because he seems to think i would make a good G-word.."girlfriend"..
so anyway i ask'd what are some things that he likes about a girl and he mentioned briefly that he likes a girl who is/ has:
*good personality
*a sense of humor
* is outgoing
*who knows how to have fun
*has goals in life
*is drama free
*likes to go to church
*is a family woman
..jus to name a few things..
so he in turn asked me the same question, what are sum things that i like and i, VERY briefly responded (cuz i could go on & on)..
i like:
*someone who is a good person
*has an honest heart
*who is reliable and considerate
*not necessarily "friendly" but approachable
*the same things that he mentioned
* & someone who pays attention to me
& that's BRiEF, once again..
anyway as the convo went on we discovered that we both feel like the whole talking or "dating" scene or whatever u wanna call what this generation does nowadays thing is unsatisfying, disappointing, and basically a waste of time.
he asked if i was looking for a relationship and i responded that i am not looking for anything, i simply take things day by day..
life is unpredictable anyway
and i couldn't have nearly been prepared for alot of the things that i've overcome already.
so what's the point in planning?
especially if planning involves another person whose actions you are COMPlETElY in no controll of..
i told him that i get tired of giving ppl chances and opportunities with my time because it gets wasted or is just unappreciated..
each time i try and get disappointed, my patience becomes thinner and thinner..
he agreed and says that it gets old..
i agree..
he said that that's why he stays to himself..
so do i..& im happy.
sumtimes it seems like ppl are disappointments jus waiting for the chance or opportunity to show u jus how much they can disappoint u.
how unreliable they can be.
how much different from your expectations they can be and how much of a waste it is to put your trust into them and keep trying
over
& over
& over & over..to give the next person a chance b/c they "might" B better than the last
and its a gamble.
& im sorry call me a sore loser (( & in no quitter )) if you will but after falling on your ass or your face so many times..
you've got to learn to STOP doing whatever it is to cause it to happen.
im the type of person who genuinely tries to treat ppl the way i want to B treated..
but sometimes i can put too much faith or trust into ppl
& give them a little too much credit..
& that cause imbalance.. like a 70 to your 30..or maybe 80 to your 20..
& sometimes 110 to your NEGATiVE..
which leave me with the short end of the stick..
the smallest straw of the draw...
the small part of the wish bone when you pull it apart etc. u get my point...hopefully...
(( ..or NOT! lol ))
guess that's life..
but my point is that once i stopped doing things that i thought other ppl would like
or doing things to make other ppl happy
& started to jus live for me ..i became myself... again..
now i wont compromise my character or demoralize myself but you could say that i can/will sacrifice something from/of myself if i honestly thought it would benefit someone else.
i love helping ppl & being a good friend ((<--that's how you get your blessings))
& I KNO im a good person but sometimes its hard to tell if everyone else sees what you see.. ya kno?
& if they don't it doesn't matter anyway..
and as soon as i take that attitude back up..u got BA again =)
(( & if you thought 'Brittany' was bad, she really doesnt care what u think lol ))
anyway.. i can B completely naive to the obvious signs that someone likes me even if they tell me..
probably b/c WORDS dont do much for me...at all.
but when it comes down to it i kno that if i was in a relationship i'd B a great G-word..
the best maybe.. lol
what's funny to me is how i can come in touch with guy after guy and im REAllY REAllY not so complex..fairly simple (( if you pay attention ))
and they get talley mark'd off like its get one fck up after the next and
i meet these dudes & they jus go on & on about how they're soo different & "ill treat u right" & yadayadayada..blah whatever but what kills me is how are you gon treat me right if you
A. don't kno SHiT about me (( & aint tryna find out ))
B. hav never asked how i'd like to B treated (( hellloooo ask ME the primary source, ASS! ))
C. DNT ANSWER THE PHONE! (( tisk tisk tisk ))
D. say you're gonna do something.. & NOT (( pet peeve which REAllY burns me up ))
E.^^ on top of that dnt call/txt saying that you're unable to live up to your word (( ugh!..shame, shame ))
F. ima leave this one blank cuz like i said i could go on & on...
so i mean i kno dudes come accross sum chix who aint shit
and we all kno dat 85% of niggas aint bout shit ((but themselves)) already
***so my question is WHY would you rather juggle a menagerie of clueless, fast, open, wild, prideless girls who hav no definition of who they are rather than HANDliNG 1 commited, trustworthy, mysterious, fun, loving WOMAN who knows exactly who she is and what she wants who you KNO is gon B down for you no matter what??
i mean after going thru soo many why B so open?
why go backwards?
why not cut dem hoes OFF & keep to yourself..
or if you wanna B with SOMEbody how bout jus hav ONE??
its less to keep up with, less to worry about, less to care about, less to manage
maybe im lazy but i think my idea makes more sense than yours..
evn if you jus dont like to B alone...
that's perfectly normal..
ppl get lonely and need companionship..cool..
but really? do you really HONESTlY believe that talking to 3+ evn 2+ guys or girls to periodically fill the void is a good decision?
how about u fill the void PERMANANTlY--or long-term-temporarily lol
i think it's sloppy and you're jus gonna hav to clean up a big mess later so why not B pro active about the situation??
like am i making sense or do belong on another planet??
i jus dont see the point in going back & forth with "talking" or "messin around" with multiple ppl.
for one that's gross & 2 like if the person you're talking to isn't cutting it
how bout u jus move along!
u dont HAV to find something u like about the person and use it up until u cant stand it anymore or until they realize what game ur playing..
do what i do!
run a trial period, 30 day, 60 day, 90 day..your choice..
if he or she ain't working cancel your services & move the hell on!! lol
im serious tho..my time is valuable..
(( ive said it once, ill say it again: make it count 4 sumthin hunni..dnt waste my >>time<< is money! ))
how bout u jus find one & stick to him/her.
& i kno it's not simple to jus 'find' a good one who can do it for u
(( especially if you're as picky as i am ))
but why not limit or put a standard on who you giv your chances to..
everyone who knows me KNOWS me
KNOWS what kind of person i am..
im sweet
im caring
im nice..so on..
but im not sweet, caring, or nice to EVRYONE!!
b/c EVRYONE doesn't deserve it..
& EVRYONE doesn't earn it..
& if they dont work for it on their own
nothing you do can make their conscience empathize with what you think you deserve from this or that person..
u cant pull it out, dig it out, sex it out, talk it out, walk it out none of dat lol
a person will treat you how they see fit
until they feel to treat you otherwise..
jus like i personally believe if you genuinely lOVE someone, theres NO way you could cheat on him or her..im sorry that jus the way i feel..
i mean only so many things can fit into a heart..
if you overwhelm it..its bound to B broken...
(( im rambling by now, you may understand it; you may not. matters not.. ))
so basically the whole point of this note was to ask my question & to xplain what led me to ask it..as well as state my views or opinions on this issue..
i jus cant seem to understand how a guy can pass on a good catch to deal with multiple not so good chix... = /
i really dnt understand and im really hoping someone can explain to me what is the reason for this, if there is a reason...
& the same goes for women, we pass on a few good men also, we arent perfect..
i personally am picky..but i DONT lead any one on..
if im not feelin it, you'll kno it.. & likewise if i am feeling it..
i really wanna kno ppl's opinions about this whether u agree or disagree with anything i've mentioned..so feedback plz!
-♥Shon.
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